Several weeks ago, I asked my friends and family if they had any questions for loss parents like myself. I also reached out to a few friends that have also lost babies, and asked if they would contribute to this post. Just like everyone handles different situations differently, loss parents aren't a "one size fits … Continue reading My friend lost a child. What do I do? What do I say?
May 30, 2019 was a Thursday. It was my first official day of summer break. Andy and I had scheduled maternity photos that evening and I had scheduled a hair appointment that morning. I was officially 32 weeks pregnant. Our son, Jack, was just as active as he'd always been but I had this nagging … Continue reading 5/31/19 – A Stillbirth Story
Andy and I were home...without our baby. The emptiness, the heaviness, the numb feeling...it was all so overwhelming and so surreal. Her nursery was set up. Everything was ready for her and yet, she was gone. How could this be real? We sat on the couch for a little while and eventually my mama asked … Continue reading Arrangements
What happens after your child runs ahead of you to heaven? I'd never thought about it. It's not something you plan for. I was sitting in that chair beside my husband. I was holding our daughter trying to take in everything I possibly could about this little person. I wanted to remember the way she … Continue reading Empty Arms
“Please God, let me get there in time.” Thats all I thought the entire way. I was texting Andy to stay updated. I was texting friends to keep them in the loop. I was hurting. I felt sick. But none of that mattered. Please God, let me get there in time. Thats all that mattered. … Continue reading Goodbye
As soon as the decision was made to transport Ruby to Augusta, everyone and everything moved into fast forward. Up until this point, I'd been confined to my bed because of special medicines and what felt like every wire known to man. After the nurses from Augusta left my room, my nurse began freeing me … Continue reading Transport
I thought I was overreacting. I thought we'd check in, hear a heartbeat, and be sent on our way. Instead, I'd just undergone an emergency surgery. Our daughter was now in the NICU and I didn't know the severity of her condition. I'd spent 2 hours in recovery waiting and worrying. I didn't know when … Continue reading Decisions
Our daughter, Ruby, arrived on October, 7, 2017 by emergency c-section. As soon as she arrived she was rushed from the room and was immiediately put on a ventilator. Andy and I stayed behind in the operating room. We sat in silence for what seemed like forever while the doctor finished my surgery. There were … Continue reading A Storm is Brewing: Recovery
October 7, 2017 was a Saturday. It was the first Saturday of my Fall Break. I was 9 days shy of my due date. My husband, Andy, and I were expecting our first child, a daughter we'd named Ruby Elizabeth. It seemed that Ruby would be a sleeper like her Mama. Once she'd started consistently … Continue reading 10-7-17: A Birth Story
Out of the Darkness 